Thankful For The Night

I was grateful when everything seemed right, but was I grateful when everything seemed wrong?

by : JTTamayo

Couple of years ago, I was singing and dancing to the music of 2PAC’s “Ghetto Gospel” while partying in one of the most prominent club in Bonifacio High, I was celebrating my promotion to senior officer and also becoming one of the youngest to achieve such feat to a company that caters to over 300 thousand employees worldwide.

Wow! I said to myself, sometimes I amaze even myself!

Several months after, I lost the job!

Wow! Again, I said to myself, I never cease to amaze myself (chuckle)! A record breaking feat, transforming me from hero to zero at a running speed of 230 KPH but I still told myself “all is well”.

Then, my world began to crumble, sold our cars, sold my bike, sold one of our entertainment system, my son has to transfer school, money in the bank was filtered dry, lost significant amount of cash in a bummed business investment, my wife was hospitalized, and did I say my world crumbled? Oh yes, everything seemed wrong and I was left to think and believe that we have lost everything!

The singing and dancing turned to despair and anger, discouragement and doubt, and grumbles & mumbles.

Yes, I was grateful in times of plenty, but I was (very) bitter in times of trouble.

Then in one of those bitter and cold days, I received a gift from the local Pastor in JOGSGO, it was an orange NIV Bible! Hmmm, odd I thought at first (because I already have several bibles at home), thinking a high paying job would have been better. But the said Pastor, never gave up on me, together with his wife (who by the way is also a Pastor) encouraged me to read through it, meditate on it and live by it.

While reading though my orange bible, I was led to read through and meditate on the story of Joseph in the book of Genesis, a man who had more than a spoonful. He had many reasons to be ungrateful. Yet, try as I might to find tinges of bitterness in his story, I didn’t succeed. What I have discover however are two dramatic gestures of gratitude.

“And to Joseph were born two sons before the years of famine came, whom Asenath, the daughter of Poti-Phera priest of On, bore to him. Joseph called the name of the firstborn Manasseh: ‘For God has made me forget all my toil and all my father’s house.’ And the name of the second he called Ephraim: ‘For God has caused me to be fruitful in the land of my affliction’ (Gen. 41:50–52 NKJV).

 

Slowly and surely, I have started seeing the potentials in my life, GOD’s blessings that I have ignored mostly in my life, has never left me and was never taken away from me.

Yes, I’ve lost our cars but whenever I need one, there is always one available to be used. Yes, I’ve lost significant amount of cash, but we never lacked money to pay for our regular bills, buy food, payment for tuition fees, gasoline and the likes. Yes, I’ve lost my bike, but I was given back a bigger one. Yes, my son transferred schools, but he learned better and understood better the values and importance of spiritual life. Yes we’ve lost some material gadgets, but we were given far better things like peace, patience and perseverance (imagine if you have several entertainment systems and you cannot use them because of the rising cost of electricity).

Yes I thought my world crumbled!  And yes I was wrong………………………….I was very wrong.

I was blinded by my lust for power, money and fame thinking these things would make me happy and my family secure. I was wrong.

My life’s ordeal opened my eyes, my wife’s eyes and my son’s eyes to appreciate ALL of GOD’s blessings and helped us realize that material wealth is nothing without GOD.

Blessings and bitterness doesn’t go over well with GOD.

GOD is so faithful, GOD is so merciful and GOD will never leave us nor forsake us.